In a way he ruined my life. I don’t know. Maybe it was my lack of self-confidence that prevented me from leaving him sooner. But I liked him. We could have had a great marriage. He could have had a nice and successful life with me, but he simply didn’t play along.
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Is there unconditional love?
If I said this to my parents, I assume that our relationship would end. I am not ready to say it to them. I don’t really know how this would affect my mind. But I think it’s at the core of why I’m unhappy with my life even now.
Continue readingThe heartbroken child is still there
In my mind I created this romantic father that he should have been or rather who I’d still like to have. I still miss this person. I would like to tell him about my life, my struggles, my sadness. I would like to have him as partner in crime and a person of trust.
Continue readingMy decision was the right one
What was impossible to say up to now is clear to me today: In those days I looked after myself. I looked at my situation and the system I lived in. I want to confidently stand behind my decisions and communicate it that way, without becoming tense. I had very particular reasons for choosing the path of termination and not the path of pregnancy.
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